Saw Lauren earlier, drove up we went for a bevvie, she spilt my coffee all over her, bless her it hurt, took her home and all seems to be ok, she didn't want to go hospital, who does, but she wouldn't show me , which I guess is tad embarrassing but it's only me, I've seen worse. Anyway she ok.
Work is getting better, then change is still ongoing, but compared to the last entry feel I've made progress. Don't get me wrong come Thursday when I'm back, I seem to have two to three odd hours of utter misery and feeling sorry for myself at the thought of working, but then, before you know it yer home, it's done, and only two days til I'm off again, come Saturday's then it's all gravy as I'm off tomorrow, and Monday is kind of our Friday so makes it easier too. The team are bonding well it seems, although I guess soon enough the claws will come out, I'm sure I've annoyed them in some manner, but Yeh we've taken a few calls, we've had what, 14 hrs on the phones in all, still nerve racking being in such limbo, but the mentors have been very helpful and they've all been there. The banters friendly, the place is starting to feel a bit more like home, going for tea, coffee, a fag, some food, vending machines etc, it's all imprinted now so that's positive progress.
Waiting to see if I'm being paid today, they say I am but like to know lol.. Really need some money.
Lauren got a bit weird with me earlier, discussing the apparent need to have one lesson a week to which she said she was gonna ask about a two hour lesson Next week but no money, I say, what about the CSA money, it's all gone already ? Yeh, she said, all on Blackpool plus it was paid beginning of sept and mam said because you changed jobs, she asked the csa apparently, that payment won't be til end of October...... So I'm gonna ring them and tell them to stop feeding her information....
I say well I'm sure it was end of September, dos I remember saying to Lauren when Discussing it before that it Deffo went from my pay, and she said Yeh eventually she got it... So she's pulling a fast one there, I may be wrong but I'm sure I'm not, but anyway, not the point, she has to realise she can't have it all on a plate, she has to be patient, wait like most people, at this time of her life she needs to make habits of saving, waiting for reward and paying her way, for her own good. I fear her mother doesn't agree. She still pays Lauren's mobile Bill , which is close to unacceptable really... I MEAN 150. From me, 40 a month from college, that's more than enought for a 17 year old who doesn't work or pay any bills... Thank you very much. Deal with it I say... Not in a Nasty way you understand.
Fuck, this is long eh... A record perhaps, bit of a rant, lol, anyway back to it.
Oh, new pain has introduced itself lately, a sharp intense build up of pain in abdominal area, very off putting and it fookin hurts.
Though of the day:
Be yourself.
In a bit. X
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