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It's sinking in little by little. 

Need to get over myself. This isn't about me. Whatever I may feel about it, I have to embrace it with open arms and look forward to the positives. 

Looking at houses, saw a nice one by Nats mums, ideal spot and lovely but we shall see. 

Changes see, I don't react well to change. But like I've said it's not about me. I'm irrelevant now. I am mourning my  life as it is. Because that's all over. 

Natalie feeling similar to me. This isn't ideal but it is what it is and she doesn't want to think about the alternatives. Can't blame her at all. 

She doesn't feel pregnant which is strange but there's still a long way to go so it's hard trying not to get too attached. Things can go wrong but I don't think they will. Hope I'm right. 

Watching MOTD Gerrards last Derby today 0-0 boring. 

Can't wait to tell somebody. Feel the need to share the news but it's only a few weeks best wait until the 1st scan. 

Thought of the day: 

Profound 

In a bit 

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