She's bunged up also and can't smoke to boot. Poor thing.
Had to make her cuppa tea so now
It's 3.50am I don't want to go to bed and end up falling asleep before she does wouldn't be fair to her considering I don't have to be up for anything. Strange logic I know but it's guilt. I live with guilt every single day for some of the terrible things I've done in the past.
And don't feel it's my place to address it as it's the price you pay for doing wrong. You live with it regardless of anything else. And this can transfer over in my personality I guess. Can't dismiss it though and never will.
Anyway I find myself writing quite profound and deep stuff a lot of the time but that's just me I guess. Need to work more on the lighter side of life, I have a good go I've got a decent sense of humour. Most people I meet describe my humour or personality as very dry, haha, Yeh.
Again regarding the baby news I've been good again today it serves no purplose at all to be negative about it. Embracing it as much as I can without getting too attached because it's still early days.
Natalie's mum has had a couple of miscarriages in the past so we are both aware of this. It's biology which you can't fight to a large degree at times so need to wait. But when the day comes that we can share it that's gonna be a huge relief and hugely exciting too, for all the family and I just know how pleased everyone will be for us.
Anyway haven't heard the mrs move for a few mins. Fingers crossed x
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