Natalie asleep. Bless her. Love her.
Lauren over tomorrow. Be nice. Love her.
As the day has progressed it's got a bit better from earlier but under riding sense of, I dunno, like worry I'd say is the best word to use. Worries that something isn't quite right in the world. Mine and Natalie's relationship has kind of been on hold in terms of physical contact. It's had quite an effect on the pair of us this, she's trying to quit the fags, amongst all the other everyday shit to deal with. All the funny pains and emotions, gotta be hard and she's my inspiration in dealing with this positively, because if she can do this, with everything she has to contend with then so can I.
I don't smoke around her at all. Well. I'll be in the garden room or out front, she knows what I'm doing but I feel funny smoking around her. It's the right thing to do, but changing these habits is hard, like I say Natalie has had to stop, I haven't. So perspective.
Back to work next week need the money, had a decent rest and plenty of sleep haha.
Get back into it and look forward and provide for my new child. Our child. Our baby. Our life.
It awaits us.
In a bit
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