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Thursday 5th February 02:14, 

Just had a week in hospital. Admitted 27th Jan, with the worst case of pins and needles imaginable. 

Raging from head to toe. All over. So intensely it was burning. 

Into a & e fair play no wait straight into a bed, calcium infusion writhing couple hours, started to feel better but levels were very low. Normal levels 2.2 - 2.6 mine were at 1.5 very very low. Not good at all.

A direct result of the operation. 

Was eventually placed onto a ward, A1 ward, bed 21, pain killers taken, was told I would be monitored overnight with regular bloods and calcium level monitoring, this was essential as it can effect the function of the heart. So when I had the first infusion I was monitored by ecg at the same time. This should have been repeated after further blood tests overnight, monitoring, but this was not forthcoming at all. The worst night of my life. I was screaming for help with the pain, nobody offered me another infusion or blood test, it was awful, I had been lost in the system, the doctors looking after me couldn't find me. Eventually around 8am they did they took blood they gave calcium infusion, it topped me up, the pain started to subside, I slept, Natalie slept, it was the worst part over. But they failed me and Natalie completely. I felt so desperate for help I had to ring Natalie at 3 am to come and help me. And she did. Amazing, and helped me through the pain, lost lots of sleep whilst I threw up, couldn't breathe, couldn't relax, nightmare. 

Was then moved to a surgical ward C2. Been there before so felt better, shared a room with 3 others. 

Spent the next 7 days and nights having regular bloods taken, regular ecg tests, calcium and pain killer infusions, tablets and the worry that this was taking its toll on the mrs. Very difficult. 

Didn't expect that tbh, so been weird and a little weird to be home now, you get used to it, the noise, a hospital is never quiet, never silent, it's an organism. 

Calcium was being taken by my bones, not leaving enough in the blood, Hypocalcemia, had to wait for the bones to settle in its taking of the levels, seems to have started to settle, let's hope so. 

Sian upset Natalie the day I went in, which I only learned of the day I came home, was very upset and angry with sian, who has shown no respect to Natalie by ignoring her response, be it on facebook by text or face to face, she didn't need to say what she did, she argues she doesn't want to do this on Facebook hence her lack of reply yet it was good enough to instigate the argument in the first place. She is completely and utterly wrong. 

Natalie and her will deal with it between them, but sian has got it so wrong. 

Lauren has passed her test now has her car and insurance. 

It's great for her but I so worry that although she's fantastic in college and generally at home, and she has worked, she is still getting a lot on a plate without having to work toward it, she isn't paying her way which in life you must, we all must, we've all not at some stage but the longer you don't the harder it is to do.

I do hope she doesn't struggle when she hits the real world. 

Natalie asleep, gonna go bed too in a bit. 

Thought of the day:

Dunno 

In a bit x