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Monday.

Work flew by. Which is always great. Natalie back today too. Fair play things are looking ok at the moment but long way to go. Seeing her eat what she likes has been humbling and amazing too witness. So pleased for her but we live in a quiet and unspoken fear that the attacks will return. Still, we try to get on with it and shes been brilliant.

Stag do Friday, went karting, was amazingly good fun, the aftermath was shite for the guests I think but it was alright for me, no silliness, no being a bellend about it, civilised really, home by 1.30am.

Lauren off to Magaluf tomorrow. I'm not pleased and I'm very worried tbh, I know deep down she has the sense but we've all been led and we've all lead, so, hope all is ok and she returns without child. Lol.

Chilling out back, in the sun.

In a bit.

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Sat in garden.  Lush couple of days weather wise,  Natalie not been well post op. Feeling really sick all the time,  taking its toll,  she seems to be getting better today,  but,  one day at a time eh. 
Work was slow today but not too bad,  good to have some laughs again with the new lads.  Yeh,  twas OK. 

Nothing much to report.  Lauren away to effing Magaluf on 1st July,  what can I do? I have no say at all.  Worried tbh. 

Anyway,  cats annoying me.
in a bit.

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GET. THE. FUCK. IN.
Natalie had the operation.  Such a landmark moment,  was impressed with how quickly and smoothly everything went.  The staff were a credit.
She's in pain now,  asleep actually,  but on very strong painkillers all the time bless her.
Just gonna try and make it as easy as possible for her. 
God knows she's done the same for me many times,  I owe her. Haha. 
Just so happy for her that she has had it done,  she's already eaten tuna mayo sandwiches and her attitude has been amazing. 
You forget the rest of the world in times like this,  you enter a bubble of just me and you, which is what makes the prospect of spending the rest of my days by her side so amazing,  I cannot wait to tie the knot.
Natalie stirring now so let's make sure she's OK. 

In a bit. 
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Been a while.
Feet ache.  Tired.  Generally pissed off.  No reason.  Birthday yesterday.  35. Shit. 

Church this morning.  Awkward not the word. 

Lauren being a teenager, the usual stuff, nothing to be overly worried about but she's off to Magaluf 1st July,  she's 16, it's not right but I have no say in these things for some reason. 

Anyway,  watching golf, chilling,  I'm a lucky bastard. 

In a bit. 

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Still off back tomorrow. Was gonna be back today but things went tits this morning.
Just had a kip with Natalie Both tired.
Feet and knees proper sore today and shoulders.
Sitting out back bathing in the sun. Lovely.

In a bit.

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So, more time off sick. Had a right Barney with Nat the other morning, she gave me a whack in train station, I don't help when I'm a moody cunt and Natalie gets the brunt of it. I need to overcome all that and he more positive. Time to move on from all this cancer shite. My prognosis is good. Let's enjoy.
You start to feel isolated when you have time off work, like all eyes are on you because of that unspoken yet very apparent disapproval of being Ill. Not right really. Yes people take the piss, in past jobs I've done it, but this time its for real.
More tests, but we move forward. Got some tramadol for pain. It helps tbh psychologically also.

Sorted stag with adam and Rich, really good of them to get me out to chat about it. Top fellas.
Not sure how to take that Lee fella Bensons mates with, but, I don't know him so you can't judge. Probs a very nice bloke.

Anyway, nat in bed. Lauren called me earlier for a chat, which Is so sweet, she's good like that better than me in fact, need to sort that, and then she was stressed about something and asked for my advice, a brief chat and a few texts and all is ok, love that, absolutely cherish those moments with her.

So, found out today 3 guys from work leaving soon, before me, pleased for them as its better pay and hrs, shame I couldn't join transport issues, but I've got a great opportunity with BG.

Watching 2 and a half men. love this show. Nat hates it. Such is life.

In a bit.