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Just from work.
Joe was sheepish around me as Emily was sat next to him , what he told me yesterday obviously hasn't bothered him that much. Anywayz hope he's ok.

Saw Dr Rees, very likely have my thyroid glands removed. Not sure how soon. Reckons I'd have loads of tiny tumours in pancreas and a couple in glands.
Aching is related and hopefully cease post op.
Always on painkillers at moment. Itchy also, another symptom.
Still getting angry, need to stop that.

Absolutely shattered. May have a kip.
Lauren over today gonna tell her about MEN 1.

Nat working.

Thought of the day:
Be careful who you trust.

In a bit.

24

Shit day.
Back to work, in pain most of the time.
Pissed off with Emily from work, and a little bit with Joe. Emily has thrown a strop so let her get on with it.

Am absolutely fucked right now, had about 6/7 tramadols, a few biftas, and it's ten to one am.

Pretty fed up really.

Thought of the day: Friends are important.

In a bit.

23

That's it, another World Cup over. Germany won.
I'll be 39 when the next one comes round, I wonder how my life will compare then. ? !

Natalie had an amazing hen do, back today in bed asleep, we both off tomorrow, nice.

Lauren has kind of offered some sort of truce, it could have been better but its something I guess.
Very glad its kind of sorted though.

Joe and Emily been splitting up, having a breakz getting along, been a nightmare being in the middle of all that. Nightmare. But I'd like to help, offer some advice if needed.

Had a tado with Mum, spare you the details, but I told her she was wrong and fair play she apologised.

Pain 5/10 a

Thought of the day:
Say it how it is.

In a bit.

22

Its 2.18am. Early hrs of a Saturday morning.
Natalie in Liverpool on hen.
Me alone listening to podcast.
Glad they arrived safely and sounds like they had a cracking night. Very drunk. Haha.
So glad for her. To see her happy.

Lauren kicked off about Sophie going and why she isn't, its because a Natalie wanted to be care free for the weekend, she would have just worried about Lauren, and felt she couldn't be totally herself as to set an example. Lauren took offence I think, but Sophie going is Sues decision not Natalie.
Anyway, she needs to admit when she's wrong. Horrible trait to have, and we've all don't it I guess , but when yer wrong yer wrong, no shame it admitting it. Anyway whatever happens i love her to bits.

Legs and stomach hurting so im a tad high at the moment. My dads convinced I'm either all ready am addicted to tramadols or I deffo will be if I keep using them. Haha.

Anyway time to sleep.
In a bit.

21

Wednesday.
Sat in garden with cat.
Off again today woke up with worst headache / migraine I've had.
Sick.
Pain killers.
Back to bed.
Taken more since and its not bad, feel hung over almost.
Anyway squared things up with Lauren. Understood her view and pleased its cleared up.

Natalie off from today for a week, hen do in Liverpool Friday to Sunday.
Really hope she has lots of fun and let's go.
One last blow out.

Thought of the day:
I have Love. I have everything.

In a bit.

20

Stoned. Tramadols. Pulled a Sicky. Couldn't walk, so much pain.
In bedroom, dark and cool Natalie in bed on headbook.

Lauren back tomorrow.

In a bit.