It's a girl!!!! 😀 haha all is well with the little one, moving, kicking, all sorts, mummy getting there and so brave to.
Lauren okay, as can be, working hard, having doubts about uni, but okay.
Work is doing my head in. Still on probation. Tuffy being a twat. But making progress slowly.
Just want to know. Anyway, holiday in two weeks. Tenby. Nice. Can't wait.
Things are starting to feel a lot more normal now, we have our moments, but we are getting there.
I've been a let down to be honest, I've not coped well with everything and I've let the Mrs down with all my self preoccupations. I am addressing the issues I have with therapy. £40 an hour therapy. Lol.
So it better fucking work lol.
But yeh I do feel I've made it harder than it needed to be for the wife. She's had to deal with all of this sickness, and on top of that me moaning about my job, being depressed, struggling with the whole concept, truth is I wouldn't of dealt with it without her there, whispering in my ear when I'm in work " don't let it get to you, it's your frame of mind clouding the issues " not physically mind, that would be weird, but yer know I hear her voice when I need her most.
Just going to do my best to deal with my shit and be as strong as I can for her because right now I cannot wait to meet our little girl, I love her, she's real and she's on her way. ❤️❤️❤️
It's late 3 am on a Sunday morning right now, listening to heartbreaker ha, takes me back to sitting in my dads car and radio 2 on the radio, obviously, and long trips to seemingly car related places, or camping, but quite fond memories of childhood that only music can encapsulate.
I'm so blessed. A millionaire. 7th October 2015. Can't fucking wait!!!
In a bit.
