Been a while. Nearly a month in fact.
So, work is progressing nicely, in all I like it, I enjoy working for a company that takes its time with you and has faith in you a bit, and let's you learn at your own pace. Plus I'm at that stage almost where I really feel part of the furniture but I daren't get ahead of myself yet. Probation still looms large.
I did pull a sicky though, couple Saturday's ago I didn't sleep at all the night before, was fucked, and just couldn't face it, I rang work said I was suffering from symptoms, went to sleep for a few hours and went to work for about 2 pm, only because sheryl was down that night for her bday celebrations, for which I was a miserable cunt, really can Bring the worst out of people at times me, need to work on that, just can't pretend when it comes to emotions....
Lauren's cool getting on with her job and passed the theory test, I've no doubt she's booked her proper test, even though I said she has to budget her money accordingly but she won't listen to me, teenagers know best don't they.. Lol...I did when I was 17, and look where it got me.
Natalie is ok I guess, she's working so hard at the moment with uni shit to do also, wish she would learn to relax a bit more but what do I know about pressure, sweet fuck all, so it's understandable she's a bit all over the place.....bless her.
I've been a dickhead with money again, I have a drug problem also, and this is scary for me, I don't know if I can overcome it or even if I want to I've become so reliant of this routine I have, it would feel like a huge psychological loss to me right now, but it's got to stop surely, I'm probably gonna be having a baby with the Mrs soon and I can't be fannying about with trying to get hold of gear when my kid needs a nappy change or summat...... I don't know what to do..
Of course when I have ganger I don't concern myself with these thoughts, apart from here, because everything is fine, I feel capable of dealing with everything, it is an essential ingredient to getting on with it, but does one need this to survive the highs and lows of life? Not everyone does no, but I think I do, which doesn't feel right, but it's not the worse thing in the world either, it's a weird predicament.
Xmas around the corner and for the first time in a couple of years I'm off for a decent amount of time, finish on the 20th, back in for one shift on 29th then off til the 2nd. Fair play that's sound that.
Got a few pressies to sort out mind, couple more for the Mrs , and the rest of family then...
Yeh just been getting on with it I guess, sometimes it's hard and sometimes it's piss easy...
Thought of the day:
Look after the pennies.
In a bit x
